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About Me Member DA Addict ellexirisxblue17/Female/Australia Recent Activity Deviant for 1 Year
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inadequacy

Fri May 2, 2008, 4:20 AM
  • Listening to: you don't want to know
  • Reading: poems that prove my failure
  • Watching: my stomach grow
  • Playing: with horrible thoughts
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: too sick for drinks
i sometimes cannot believe my insecurity.
All it takes is someone better than me to post a few pictures and all of a sudden the removal of my body from this earth doesn't sound so stupid.
yes, yes i am that insecure. yes, i am that stupid. yes, i am that neurotic, sensitive, easily upset, depressed, unsure.

i wish sleeping had a time control.
so i could go to sleep and forget about all the people i love that indirectly make me feel like a failure.
so i could wake up in a time where people didn't tell me to be healthy, to eat more, to stop being depressed.
lists of things
to describe me.
ridiculous?
you said it.
weight. [should be insignificant]
food. [ should be a necessity]
happiness [should come soon]
i don't know why things are like this.
they shouldn't be.

it makes me feel like vodka and coke at midnight, with music blasting and no one to hurt me but myself.

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:iconfanceeerat:
I just tripped in in the middle of the night to say hello. If you haven't stopped by in a while = come see my pups!!
:iconmulysa:
Thanks for adding me to your collection.
:icondan2452:
how ya going? im 17 looking for some local photographers. im from jpc and found one other photographer out off 1050 student and he is to put it lightly. shoots the pics and hopes for the best. he is a point and shoot. its har finding local photographer mainly because there hiding and waiting for the right shoot conditions for them XD hope to see u soon

from daniel


[link] myspace

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dstewart
:iconellexirisxblue:
Hey :)
I went to Dorrigo High,finished last year. Now i live in Toormina, so pretty close to JPC :)
Why are you looking for locals? there are a fair few people from Dorrigo who are into it, pretty good ones too :)
let me know what you're looking for
elle

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elle-
"you're a mile away and you have my shoes"
:iconadi-emus:
thank you for fave :wave:

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...oh, fare thee well, you wicked world, I'm going to be good ;)
For the leaves are getting greener, and spring is on the way,
and Girls are getting prettier and younger every day :D
(Silver in the Stubble trad. irish)
:iconadi-emus:
You're featured in my journal :)
have a nice day! :wave:

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...oh, fare thee well, you wicked world, I'm going to be good ;)
For the leaves are getting greener, and spring is on the way,
and Girls are getting prettier and younger every day :D
(Silver in the Stubble trad. irish)
:iconnautylilgoth:
tyvm for the fave

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Kiss you, taste you, All mine, always
<3 Brad forever

ily xoxoxoxo
:iconsimpleskye:
Cheers on the :+fav: mate!
:iconadi-emus:
thank you for the watch :bow:

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...oh, fare thee well, you wicked world, I'm going to be good ;)
For the leaves are getting greener, and spring is on the way,
and Girls are getting prettier and younger every day :D
(Silver in the Stubble trad. irish)
:iconellexirisxblue:
No problem, i am really enjoying your works!!!

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elle-
"you're a mile away and you have my shoes"

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